Wednesday, December 24, 2008

It's Been a While

"Forgive me Internet, for I have sinned - it's been a month since my last blog post."

I'm still here. I'd like to tell you that I've just been so busy with the holidays and things, but in reality (with the exception of making a billion holiday cards) I've been reading, watching a lot of tv and generally lazing about.

Since it's been a while I'll give you the highlights:

- Thanksgiving was good, fairly uneventful. But it was the beginning of a downward trend; the stress of buying presents, getting plane tickets to go home for Christmas, thinking about what Christmas would be like without my Dad there, etc.

- A tree almost fell on the house the other day. High winds took out a huge chunk of my favorite tree and missed the house by inches. It did manage to ruin a fair amount of the fence and part of the gutter - but nothing too serious. Happily it happened on the one "warm-ish" day last week so it wasn't too horrible to clean up (not that I did any of it, but I'd hate for the tree guys to freeze).

- I've been in California for the last 6 days, I've done little to nothing and yet barely had time to see friends. Though I can honestly say that I've already had my fill of family and am seriously looking forward to my flight back east.

- It has been grey, rainy and generally shitty weather 5 of the 6 days that I have been home. Apparently California didn't get the memo that I come here for the sun. Also, my Mother has decided that the house is warm enough at 55 degrees. I've been freezing cold for all 6 days - though I'm looking forward to a thaw tomorrow (I guess we turn on the heat for company).

- Since Hanukkah is so late this year, Scott and I are celebrating it here - which is strange, since it's always been our personal celebration, but good strange. My nieces have been learning all about Hanukkah and Kwanzaa at pre-school so they are really digging lighting the candles and playing dreidel, and I think Scott is enjoying sharing it all with them. I'm a bit jealous that it's no longer something that is only ours, but we're all having such a great time creating a new family tradition that I expect I'll get over it.

- Scott and I are on the verge, of what I don't know. But I know that neither of us are handling the stress of losing my Dad, the holidays or the problems of the economy very well. I expect we'll be fine if we can get through another couple of months, but it's making an already bad time even worse.

- Even on that verge of what ever it is, we are seriously starting to consider moving. I have no idea how we will pull it off financially, but if the economy in Michigan continues it's ride to hell in a hand basket then we're loading up the truck (again) and getting out of Dodge (no pun intended, but my Dad would be proud :-). I'm thinking Seattle or Portland, possibly Philly - my only requirements for me are a big city, near water and at least a 1-2 hour plane ride from my family.

- On the Dad front, I'm not really feeling Christmas. I didn't decorate the house, I barely bought any presents, and if my Mom hadn't made me come out to California I doubt that I would have left home.

This sort of sums it up nicely (well except for the warm and fuzzy ending):

And oddly enough, the Grinch was always one of my Dad's favorites, so maybe that's a good sign. I'm hoping for a better Christmas next year - but not holding my breath just yet.

I'm off to bed (it's the only warm spot in the house!) - so I say to you, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah and/or Happy Kwanzaa!


kimmyk said...

It's hard when you lose a family member and trying to get through that first year of holidays. You just kind of go through the motions.

As far as moving-I totally wanna move to the West Coast. Portland or Seattle have always been like 1 and 2 on my list of places to move once my kids graduate. (see #26)

Thanks for the update...I hope you find some California sun today.
Happy Holidays!!!

Anonymous said...

Happy Holidays!

Hotch Potchery said...

I am sorry the holidays have been hard on you and yours. I have missed reading your blog, glad you are back!

Bronwyn said...

I hope it helps to know we are all thinking of you. I know you will get through whatever you need to, but sometimes it's better to know you're not alone.

Lori said...

Sorry the holidays were such a bummer for you.

Happy New years! It's got to get better right?

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

The year of firsts is always tough. Despite what you say, I think you're handling it really well. If you're not up to celebrating the holidays with the same gusto you normally do, it seems like it's a good year to scale back. You can always celebrate the way you're accustomed to next year. Hang in there ... a new year is almost here.

for a different kind of girl said...

Sorry this has been a tough time for you. I hope the year ahead holds some promises. Perhaps, after investigating the job situations and such in your desired locales, a change of scenery may be just the thing to help kick things off.

Glad you let us know you're still out there...

Karen Jo said...

The first round of holidays without a loved one there is always very hard. I think you are doing fine. I hope the New Year brings you better times.

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